The Tenth Letter

 
Sunday, September 23, 2001                                                               
11:35 AM
Dear Ducky,
            School starts in three days.  I am looking forward to being intellectually stimulated again.  I realize that it was my trips to school that prompted these letters to you.  I still miss you fervently—and it only seems to be when I have free time that I really start to think about you. 
I wonder…I have never known what drugs you were doing…was it marijuana and alcohol?  Or something worse, much worse?  I am imagining cocaine, heroin, LSD, ecstasy.  And that makes me sad.  I just watched Forrest Gump again last night.  I suddenly saw a lot of similarities between you and the character of Jenny.  I guess I know that there were some pretty terrible things that happened to you to make you run away and be so messed up.  I am still so very angry with Toni and Tom.  Why didn’t they know that they were hurting you?  Why did they even think that they could raise children?  From what I hear, Andrew is pretty messed up too.  He came back from Gonzaga and flipped out.  I applied to Gonzaga, and was accepted, but was a little afraid of the school that made Andrew even too crazy for your parents.